Yeah, I haven't been around here in a while, and I apologize for not answering comments and commenting on everyone's work... but as the title says, emotions have taken a bit of a hold on me right now. Lately, I feel like I'm being stretched thin... really thin. Admitedly, my self confidence is... well, pretty low. But just a few days ago, I've been at an all time low. Now, it's not like anyone is putting me down or anything like that. God only knows how much I love the people I surround myself with... rely on for so much. But it is mostly myself I guess. I only think of how terrible I am, or badly I do at everything. And then I hate myself. I hate myself for letting others down... There I times that I really wonder if people would really miss me... it scares me, but I do it, quite often, too. And lately I've had some weird mood swings. I mean, at one moment I'll be laughing with my friends, and just a few hours later, I just want to fall down and cry for no real reason. However, I don't really let how I feel show to others. I just hide myself from them, and just try to be normal. Now, my friend Shelby has seen me acting weird and was concerned, but I just told her I was tired from a late night.

I don't know what I can do about this. I just listen to music, as if I didn't than I would die. I hate the silence... it makes me think way too much. And right now, that isn't a good thing. And tomorrow school starts. I don't know if I can keep up my facade, or if I really want to. But I guess I have to persevere. And right now, I'm just typing and listening to this awesome song by Nickelback called Photograph. Just a few hours ago, I almost started crying while I listened to it. Back to school... I don't know if I can make it. Right now I feel like I've been physically beaten, and I just want to lie down forever. And right now, I just need someone to make me feel like they care, even if just a little bit. Damn, I don't want to sound whiney here, and I'm not begging anyone to do anything. But right now, I just need someone to hold on to for dear life... But anyway, I just thought I'd put how I was feeling down somewhere... maybe it'll make me feel just a tad bit better.